I can't tell you how many times I'll be just driving along and it hits me. Kristen is GONE! It's like someone punched me. I feel shocked. How can this be. I will be just going along with my day and the surprise of losing her will hit me. It really sucks. It's like the sharp cut of a knife. It doesn't go away. The pain hasn't lessened. This is just our life. I think the quick sharp pain hits me so hard because it will come out of the blue. I really hate that. It's like my mind must constantly remind me not to get to comfortable. You never know when life will change. It frustrates me to have no control.
God please help me to remember that you are in control. You know the number of our days. You are there for me in those moments that hit me out of the blue. You are there for me to lean on. You provide comfort and your word tells me that this life is only temporary. Soon we will be together again with you in Heaven. Amen
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